For our fruitful year of 2022! *cheers*
Hi there, good night! (just adjusting my greetings with the beautiful stargazing pic that I put on this post). I can’t believe we only have 10 days left in 2021, therefore I will celebrate the end of this year with this series called Legilimens, where you can enter inside my mind, allowing you to grasp into my memories, emotions, or thoughts. So let’s get started *clinking glass*.
After finishing my degree in Nutrition Science, I began to seek jobs that suit my educational background. I start to join seminars to upgrade my skills and luckily got accepted as a quality control foreman at one of the snack companies located far far away from my hometown. Without a long thorough process of thought & carelessness, me, who was a fresh graduate and really excited about getting my first job, accepted the offer and pack my things to go there, which is around 8 hours driving from my town (yes it is indeed far far away like I said). I brought so many things I adore but with so much more expectations and dreams to build my first career in this company. But 4 weeks in, I resigned due to personal reasons. Nevertheless, I’m really glad and very grateful to have that experience because of that 4-week-job, I can see more clearly what are my purpose for getting a job, what I want to do professionally, what work culture do I want to be in, and who are the people I want to be surrounded with. Although it’s not really pristine-clear & maybe years from now my purpose will be changing again, at least I know that I’m not suitable for this kinda job. I’m forever thankful for this opportunity and not leaving behind, my family, I’m so grateful to have such a supportive family that respects and believes in my crazy choices to move out for a job in another town just to resign 4 weeks later.
In the spirit of the new year, the most natural & mainstream question would be; So what’s next? The answer is still “I don’t know” (really need to bold it out because it really is). But this is the moment that I have to choose, be consistent, and commit to my decision. That was what this particular someone told me to do the first time I came back home. Choose, consist, and commit. Not gonna lie, after resigning I fell into a slump and feel so lost, but still, I have to choose what my next step will be. If I can’t make that decision I won’t be moving anywhere. Another reason is that staying still in this jobless phase after graduating college is the least option at this point in my life.
Being consistent and committed to one thing is scary and challenging for me. For the longest time, it seems like I can’t be satisfied enough with my work and always try something new because I feel like I can’t finish it properly and perfectly. Or maybe I’m just being lazy to get some tasks done or maybe I tend to escape when things got really hard for me to tackle. That’s why I just know the tip of the iceberg and didn’t go beyond that. I really need to step up my game in this aspect. I’ve been actually working on consistency this year, which was to track small habits like working out or how many cups of water I drink in a day. I believe that it would be beneficial to train my consistency and commitment. But knowing me, it all disappears within the first or two weeks of tracking. So being honest with you, I’m writing it here to encourage (read: pressure) me to focus more on channeling energy towards my goals, so that in the next Legilimens series (I don’t know when, but hopefully soon) I can gladly tell you that I’m an organized person who can get their sh*t done. Last but not least, I’ll be trying, learning, and earning something new in January and I hope this opportunity will be the one that I’ve been searching for.
Let’s all pray for a fruitful year in 2022, both for you and me, yay! *cheers*
